Posted on January 13, 2026
Halcyon is maybe just some silly word he came up with, or maybe he knew about the sedative that the US Military came up with to control peoples' minds? (I'd say there is a very high chance that he did, since he and Eric were so Godlike and Warlike lol...)
Regardless, it is a funny coincidence. The drug is said to cause states of delirium, confusion, blackouts, and for people to be easier to manipulate. It was only introduced to the public in some incidents where military personnel snuck the substance outside of military property. Some chose to use this for nefarious purposes, others just wanted to get high.
My sunshine boy describes his Halcyon as an idyllic state of existence which is pure, peaceful and timeless. This state is imagined as beyond ordinary human society, not reforming it. It is often framed as something lost, unreachable, or inaccessible to him while alive. He does not define Halcyon consistently or systematically. It functions more like a personal myth than a doctrine. Halcyon appears as a mental refuge from perceived humiliation and emotional pain or a place or condition where he imagines acceptance, unity, and relief. In some passages, Halcyon is associated less with life and more with dissolution of the self or release from identity, body, and social roles. This aligns with how he often wrote about wanting to “merge,” “fade,” or no longer exist as an individual consciousness.
A recurring theme in Klebold’s writing is idealized love—often abstract, unattainable, or directed toward imagined partners. Halcyon sometimes appears as a place where perfect union exists. Love is portrayed as transcendent rather than reciprocal—not something negotiated between real people. This reinforces the idea that Halcyon is not a social world but a post-human or pre-human condition. He did not ever explicitly describe Halcyon as a violent goal or afterlife. However, over time, his writing increasingly frames the real world as corrupt, painful, or unworthy, while Halcyon is framed as pure. The psychological contrast—this world vs. Halcyon—contributes to a detachment from real-world consequences.